and with that the goblin appeared

[fleamailman]

repost from elsewhere, the "please introduce yourself" section

in fact by now the goblin didn't even know if his libido still worked, saying "...no doubt I'd probably start thinking about the appropriate lines and adjectives at the time, highly likely with all this writing now, transcendental lovemaking, subjective, looking on once more, as in "and how was it for you darling", replying "soft, firm, mechanical, overwhelming, intimate, passionate and somewhat messy too", admittedly not quite what she was expecting to hear then, but her fault for asking...", so, as far as the goblin's lovelife was concerned, all speculations, and those conjectures that go with them, had not been put to test for quite some while now, simply "bets off" seemed easier to live with here, that is while accepting that at his age, like any age for that matter, there were both hardships and compensations, "...welcome to your transcendental "double life" goblin..." went slot's voice in the background again, adding "...please post your "out of self" experiences here, you usually do, don't you now goblin..."


64

[Pappa]

Don't ask.

Why?

[Bella Fortuna]

I've forgotten. My eyes keep glazing over.

[fleamailman]

the goblin thanked Bella Fortuna but felt his goblin persona here was hardly any worse than that other mask he wore in dailylife, and far better than all that loneliness that most old people suffered for their being old then, something usually interpreted as what then, their being stubborn, ugly, cantankerous, unclean, etc., amongst other adjectives so often voiced behind their backs, "...ah, but what if inside me I wasn't really that person in the mirror at all, what if it was just some external conditioning that had no truth beyond those social dictates placed upon one because either that was how one looked, or as expected for one's age, and no, I'm not saying that one should adapt to some fake teenage persona either, only that all too often that one sees the other extreme here, those people who go out of their way to mirror themselves here, only to wonder why they don't attain that which they were looking for, the actual appreciation of the inner selves behind their outer ones...", at which point the goblin just sighed, feeling that his only real failing was that he couldn't repeat, in his dailylife too, this ageless changeless goblin persona now, but no, alas in dailylife the goblin remained simply whatever those around him viewed him as, just his externals each time, but that was always humans for you, and ever so superficial creatures they were


42

[Atheist-Lite]

the goblin thanked Bella Fortuna but felt his goblin persona here was hardly any worse than that other mask he wore in dailylife, and far better than all that loneliness that most old people suffered for their being old then, something usually interpreted as what then, their being stubborn, ugly, cantankerous, unclean, etc., amongst other adjectives so often voiced behind their backs, "...ah, but what if inside me I wasn't really that person in the mirror at all, what if it was just some external conditioning that had no truth beyond those social dictates placed upon one because either that was how one looked, or as expected for one's age, and no, I'm not saying that one should adapt to some fake teenage persona either, only that all too often that one sees the other extreme here, those people who go out of their way to mirror themselves here, only to wonder why they don't attain that which they were looking for, the actual appreciation of the inner selves behind their outer ones...", at which point the goblin just sighed, feeling that his only real failing was that he couldn't repeat, in his dailylife too, this ageless changeless goblin persona now, but no, alas in dailylife the goblin remained simply whatever those around him viewed him as, just his externals each time, but that was always humans for you, and ever so superficial creatures they were


42

You wish you were here but not being evident, they seek something more that the clock would deny even a human.

[fleamailman]

You wish you were here but not being evident, they seek something more that the clock would deny even a human.

"...so this then is one's ultra ego, the written self perhaps..." proposed the goblin ever in the now of the moment, where nothing is of consequence because one is anonymous, saying "...simply all is fiction, even oneself becomes the fiction of it, just it goes back to my first post on this thread each time..."

[normal]

just it goes back to my first post on this thread each time..."

That's just where you want it to go. And I think it can get pretty one dimensional if you keep insisting on dragging yourself back there. Come, come deeper. Reveal yourself. Go to meet nearby ratz. Have sex with them. Don't tell the wife. See the other dimensions!

[Horwood Beer-Master]

The thing that worries me about this thread is the possibility that it is actually all in perfectly plain comprehensible English, and that I've in fact suffered a stroke.

[amused]

Is this one of those performance art things where some woman is going to talk to her vagina?

[fleamailman]

just it goes back to my first post on this thread each time..."

That's just where you want it to go. And I think it can get pretty one dimensional if you keep insisting on dragging yourself back there. Come, come deeper. Reveal yourself. Go to meet nearby ratz. Have sex with them. Don't tell the wife. See the other dimensions!

"...nah, that just turns forumland into facebook, very much depending upon one's externals again..." replied the goblin, adding "...why should my status and how I look take precedence over how one feels inside, and besides, don't you want to know who you are by what you post..."

[fleamailman]

The thing that worries me about this thread is the possibility that it is actually all in perfectly plain comprehensible English, and that I've in fact suffered a stroke.

"...you are not here, all that is actually here are words on a screen that represent you now..." replied the goblin, continuing "...where if you feel that your persona needs those dailylife details then so be it then, whereas me, well I'm just your average everyday type of goblin here, but I suppose that's how I've always been to date and how I'll remain too, simply a trade-off then, one where one never actually is, but never changes too , after all, one is either peter pan or wendy here...", yet the goblin wondered if the beer master was following him now

[fleamailman]

Is this one of those performance art things where some woman is going to talk to her vagina?

"...well yes I suppose..." replied the goblin, adding "...but only when she is addressing a dickhead by it..."

[fleamailman]

repost from elsewhere, the "introduce yourself" thread again

"... welcome those who have welcomed me..." said the goblin a little time since first joining this site, and yet the goblin had noticed by now a slight let up in everyones welcoming him here, so the goblin has decided to rewelcome all members who had welcomed him again while suggesting that we could hold a "welcome fleamailman week" with "welcome fleamailman" badges and flags, etc., "...anyway as always I am open to input and debate on this subject afterwards..." ventured the goblin with such magnanimous generosity towards his fellow posters here



7 72 321