Sean Hayden wrote: ↑Fri Aug 31, 2018 1:10 pm
I rejected religion as a kid. It was too obvious to me that it couldn't be real. "Point to where in my body you think the soul exist" kind of thing.
But I did give religion a shot my first time doing any real jail time. I forgive myself though. I was a young white guy whose mom had made it out of poverty to the burbs suddenly surrounded by real hard asses.
It helps too that on subsequent visits I didn't return to religion. Hey, it didn't work the first time right?
Well, I was indoctrinated into the religion from an early age, and it took me a long time to start doubting that God was Good and Loving. Basically, a life of b ad knocks got me there. Once I was there, I still was not fully ready to renounce it, I thought maybe, just maybe, that I was being put to some kind of testing, and maybe I should become a priest (well, it's not like I looked like I could become anything meaningful anyway)... so I read, really read the New Testament (the Gedeons had done a distributions of NT+psalms volumes in my uni, so I had the material to do the study)... and it was then that I really got that chretinity was absurdity piled upon nonsense... basically, you had to be stupid or self deluded to believe in that stuff... should have guessed that before, I had had the same experience when I read the Book of Mormon and concluded it was quite an egregious forgery.
So my conclusion was that either there was no god at all, and that if there was one, it was not conform to biblical preachings and unworthy of worship.
I'm still at that stage, having had no real proof of the nonexistence of supernatural things... though I've also utterly failed to find any evidence of their existence. I tried the God delusion, and was dispappointment with the Dawk's discourse, so I guess I'm still on the fence with the other agnostics.
I'll know if there is an after life soon enough, in the meantime, I try to make my earthly one as pleasant as possible.
