Why are you so sure she was "terrified" to question any aspect of it? Your language is quite presumptive and emotive - was her faith "crammed" or was it lovingly passed on in time honoured fashion from one generation to the next? Were the "dire consequences" highlighted and focused upon, or were the more joyous, peaceful and positive aspects of the faith espoused?Xamonas Chegwé wrote:This "natural as breathing" faith of your grandmother was not "personal" at all! It was nothing but the result of a childhood spent having that faith crammed into her by her parents, priests and peers. It is a lie that was told to her so many times, with such dire (for all they were imaginary) consequences for disbelieving, that she was physically terrified to question any aspect of it.
I can't speak for her, but my local Catholic community was an invariably positive community. The terrors of hell fire were never dwelt upon - religion and belief on its own was not seen as a means of escaping hell fire, it was seen as a cherry picked template by which to live life nicely. Irish Catholicism is a strange, pragmatic beast - most towns now have "Vigil" Mass on Saturday night so people can have a lie in on Sunday (the Sabbath) after a feed of drink, and the clergy tacitly go along with this. Of course, all of the horrendous negatives of the institution of church can't be ignored, but your analysis of religious belief as a profoundly negative phenomenon is just wrong, IMO.
Oh, it was placid, unquestioning faith all the way down, believe me. That's what happens when you live within a community in which 99% of people take religion seriously and hardly never see the need to doubt it. And then when there are slight doubts about faith, the church can cherry pick a nice piece of scripture to show that what the person is feeling is only human and natural - thus dispelling the doubts.People like your grandmother are like swans - on the surface displaying placid, unquestioning faith; underneath, the same roiling mass of doubts and fears as the rest of us.